I Wish I Could Tell You
How the house I’m living in is no longer a home
That I only feel okay when I’m completely alone
How sometimes I wish I lived in a different time-zone
To avoid feeling miserable, to have some time on my own
As bad as I feel, it’s hard to let these feelings be known
Because I am a 21 year old woman who has to act “grown”
Who has to dry her tears and not let her feelings be shown
So I’ll continue this battle and just keep dodging the stones
I Wish I Could Tell You
About the amount of scars I hide
Not only physical but the ones that creep from inside
From every friend I thought I had yet they always said goodbye
From the days I spent in High School avoiding lunchtime
And no matter how hard I tried, I was always left behind
Always makes me contemplate why I was never ever liked
According to them I was boring and way too shy
While I tried my hardest to fit into each of their paradise
The picture wasn’t bright enough, they didnt see how we were alike
I was never good enough, my frienship was constantly denied
I Wish I Could Tell You
How at 13 I watched my family fall apart
How the cops barged in, pointing their guns
At night I can still hear the barking of their dogs
But little did I know they were only doing their job
One parent tried to hurt the other so they called the cops
That’s when I realized daddy’s little girl had to grow up
Still remember being frozen and doing nothing but sob
Why do people hurt the person they claim to love
Insomnia’s The fly that won’t stop buzzing in your ear
Keeps you up at night and tells you all the things you hate to hear
It feeds off of your pain, worries, and fears
It reminds you of the people you know but are no longer here
It tricks you into thinking you’re finally falling asleep
Until sleep paralysis hits you and you start hyperventilating